Diary of A Layman #23 (Summer): The Mayans Predicted the Coming of Green Lantern
By now you have no doubt heard that according to astronomers and anthropologists, December 21, 2012 correlates to the “end” of the Mayan calendar. And, despite having repeatedly heard about this for many, many years now, it is also very probable that you still have no idea exactly what this means. The reason is because it’s very complicated. To even begin to understand it you need to look to the Mayan myths of the Sacred Tree and understand their incredibly complex Long Count calendar of tuns, k’atuns, and b’aktuns as well as their concepts of the Great Cycle, the Great Great Cycle, and cycles within cycles. You’d also need to understand astronomical occurrences involving the precession of the equinoxes and the conjunction of the sun at the intersection of the plane of the ecliptic and the Milky Way. You can do all that, or, you can simply read my interpretation of this summer’s Green Lantern movie, which shares the same message as the Mayan mythology.
If you’re unlike most people, you actually saw Green Lantern, the critics’ least favorite of this summer’s slew of superhero movies that included Thor, Captain America: The First Avenger, and X-Men: First Class. Going in with really low expectations, I actually enjoyed the film, but was a bit disappointed on how little of Green Lantern’s abilities were explored. Unlike every other superhero, Green Lantern must rely on his mind to conjure up his powers. For this reason, he is only as powerful as his imagination. He is the superhero of creativity, but the film only touched on this briefly towards the end, choosing instead to focus on fearlessness as the source of his power.
On the face of it, the film was pretty standard superhero fare, but looking deeper, I really dug the film’s unintended, subconscious message, channeled by the movie’s shamanic writers. In The Myth of Lost and previous columns, I wrote how I believe today’s writers, musicians, artists, and poets are modern day shaman, translating the messages of the collective unconscious to the masses—even if they themselves are unaware that they are doing so. There are many messages out there, and different groups of writers and artists are in tune with different channels, or frequencies. It’s like there is a giant universal radio playing and the shaman have the volume tuned up louder than most people but are all listening to different stations. I’ve suspected that I have been listening to the same station as Damon Lindelof, J. J. Abrams, and M. Night Shyamalan because their stories often share the same mythological messages as whatever I’d been working on at the time of their release. It’s also the same station that Matt Stone and Trey Parker of South Park listen to. In fact, this week’s episode focused on a spoof of Thor and The History Channel involving pilgrims, Native Americans and a space portal while my translation of the same message (which hit me back in June) involves Green Lantern, The History Channel, the native Latin Americans and an energy portal from space. It’s the same core message for different audiences. This particular message is also the same as that of the Mayan legends relating to 2012, since we are approaching the end of the same cycle that they are based upon.
To begin with, let’s get something out of the way. To the Mayans, the end of their calendar had nothing to do with the end of the world. In fact, they made prophesies about dates that would occur well after the December 2012 end date (correlating to their calendar’s K’atun 4 Ahau). The end just marks the end of a Great Cycle (5,125 years). Upon its completion, it simply begins again, with events, life lessons, and growing experiences occurring in a similar fashion to the way they had when the cycle was run through previous times. Only now, with societies having grown since then, these events would play out differently. It’s just like a vertical spiral where each point plays out similarly to the corresponding point directly below it but in a slightly elevated way.
So if this is the case, why all the focus on world disasters, crashed economies, and world upheaval? We’ve seen major uprisings in the Middle East, devastating tsunamis in Japan, floods in the Mid-West and earthquakes all over the place. In New York City this year alone I’ve experienced a hurricane, earthquake, and massive blizzards, not to mention a major Nor’easter in October! What gives? Well, since we are reaching the end of a cycle, we are coming to a checkpoint that allows us to continue up the spiral. If we had been proactive and grown enough on our own, it would’ve been smooth sailing. However, we have not done this and so must experience challenges that will help us to grow. Government upheavals are happening to help rid the world of corrupt dictators, crippling tsunamis to push us away from our reliance on nuclear energy (since the station in Japan was flooded), a major oil leak to encourage us to move away from our reliance on fossil fuels, global economy crashes to try to get us to move towards a more equal system, and natural disasters to help us to work together to solve many our current problems including water shortages, crumbling infrastructures, and bankrupt cities. We are not being punished; we are being pushed to grow because we did not do enough on our own. The world is about to evolve and if we are going to stay here we must evolve with it.
So, what does any of this have to do with Green Lantern and how does that film in any way resemble Mayan mythology? As described in Kenneth Johnson’s Parabola article, “The Shape of History: Time and the Mayan Calendar,” the final segment of the Mayans’ Great Cycle calendar is known as K’atun 4 Ahau, representing a roughly twenty year period that began (in its most recent appearance) on April 6, 1993 and ends on December 21, 2012. Each of these k’atuns last about twenty years and has its own set of prophecies expressed in poetic metaphors. The most repeated prophesy for this k’atun is: “Hulom kuk, hulom yaxum,” translated as “Come is the quetzal, come is the blue-green bird.” The quetzal is a bird that is symbolic of the Mesoamerican god Quetzalcoatal—the Feathered Serpent whose spirit was believed to return during each repetition of K’atun 4 Ahau. If you know mythology, or at least my writings about it, you probably know that snakes (most likely because they shed their skin) often represent the illusion of time in the physical realm (as opposed to the spiritual realm where time does not exist as we know it). To me, a feathered serpent would be a portal between the material world of time and the spiritual world (spirit is light as a feather, and feathers allow creatures to fly high, where the spiritual realm is thought to exist).
According to Johnson, “the reference to the ‘blue-green bird’ is puzzling when applied to the quetzal which is in fact bright green in color”—green, much like our superhero friend and the ring that is the source of his power (which I’ll get to soon). Johnson goes on to write that, “In Mayan thinking, the center of the universe is blue-green” and the word used to describe it, “yax” is also often used to refer to “beginnings or to the center point.”
So during this final k’atun, which we are quickly approaching the final year of, the Mayans believed that the spiritual energy of the Feathered Serpent will reach our world from the very center of creation. While it may bring about massive growing pains, this energy is in fact meant to lift us higher so that we can exist on the next, higher plane of existence, just as it did the last time it came around. Since the Mayan Great Cycle is the equivalent of 5,125 years, that is how often each of these k’atuns repeat and how long it takes for the Great Cycle to go full circle and begin again. The last time humanity experienced the end of a Great Cycle was in 3,114 BCE (the scientific equivalent of B.C.), which corresponds to the beginnings of civilization in Egypt and Mesopotamia and with it the start of urbanization, writing, and the spread of metallurgical technologies. Before that the Great Cycle came full circle in 8,239 BCE, which marked the transition from hunting to agriculture, allowing humans to settle down and build societies. Since 1993 when our current k’atun began, we’ve seen the rise of the Internet, which has helped unite the world and push technology along faster than any other time in history. We are now at a point however, where we must grow to be responsible for the effects of this technology on ourselves and our world. That, will most likely be the theme as we enter the next Great Cycle beginning December 21 of next year.
Interestingly, there is an incredibly rare astronomical event that coincides with December 21, 2012. This event is foretold in Mayan mythology and has remnants in our own mythology involving the snake in the Garden of Eden and the Tree of Life. On that day, our sun will align at the exact intersection between the plane of the ecliptic (the path that the Sun, Moon, planets, and stars appear to travel, from east to west, as seen from Earth) and our Milky Way galaxy. This cosmic cross was known as the Sacred Tree (Tree of Life) to the Maya with the north-south band of the Milky Way being the trunk of the tree and the main branch intersecting the tree being the plane of the ecliptic. The ecliptic intersects the Milky Way at a 60 degree angle near the constellation Sagittarius where there is a 13th constellation that crosses the ecliptic known as Ophiuchus. It is represented as a man (humanity) grasping a snake (the illusion of time) and is often considered the mysterious 13th sign of the zodiac. According to Mayan mythology, when the sun crosses at the center of the Sacred Tree (the center of the Milky Way where there is said to be a massive black hole), an energy portal is created between the earth and the world beyond so that we can interact with the spiritual realm. Many spiritual types today believe that the alignment will open a channel for cosmic energy to flow to Earth, raising us to a higher vibration.
Due to a phenomenon known as the precession of the equinoxes caused by a slight spinning top-like wobble of the Earth, the position of the stars as seen from our perspective slip a little from year to year (one degree every 71.5 years), becoming more noticeable over long periods. For this reason, the apparent location of the Winter Solstice (December 21st) sunrise has been inching towards the galactic center. Because of the Earth’s wobble, a true alignment takes even longer than a Great Cycle of 5,125 years. In fact, the sun has not aligned this precisely with the galactic center in 25,800 years—long before the Mayans even existed. So December 21, 2012 not only marks the end of the Mayan’s Great Cycle, but also the end of the Great Great Cycle of 25,800 years known scientifically as a Great Year or Platonic Year—the time it takes the precession of the equinoxes to make one complete rotation. This is a pretty big deal.
The question you may be wondering then is how did the Mayans know all this? Did they learn it from a more advanced civilization that predated their own? Was it gleaned using an ability to mind-meld with the planet? Did ancient alien visitors clue them in? While I am open to any of these possibilities, the real answer is probably more feasible. As a society that lived much more directly off of the land, they were far more in tune with its cycles than we are today. Having a simpler way of life also made it easier to recognize repeating patterns, and having a far clearer sky not polluted by smog or lights made it possible for the average person to see the stars and calculate their movements fin order to chart crop cycles and other important rituals. Like many civilizations of its time, Mayans also relied on shamans to interpret events and make predictions. While shamanism is making a comeback today, for the most part our modern society has lost a way to get in tune with the natural pulse of the planet and the heavens.
Ancient shamans were gifted with the ability to hear the frequencies of the world and their people, and they used the fresh, natural plants all around them to enhance these abilities further. These medicines were a more natural mix of plants than the synthetic, enhanced, pesticide-rich, nutrient-poor drugs of today and were used by skilled shaman who either took them themselves or guided others on how to properly do so. Ancient drugs used by Mayans, Egyptians, Greeks, and others allowed shaman to connect with consciousness, or what they would consider their gods. When Christianity came around, it banned drug use because why should anyone need the church to interpret what God wants when drugs allowed you to do it on your own. Being illegal and then synthesized into increasingly potent combinations, drugs than led to abuse, which is why we have such a negative connotation of them today. Truth is, the banning of natural mind-enhancing drugs has effectively slowed our evolutionary process and losing our connection to relevant rituals, shamans, and a connection to the rhythms of life have practically brought it to a standstill. This is why ancient man could build gigantic pyramids, predict the movement of the heavens without telescopes, and move gigantic stones on top of one another while the average modern man wouldn’t last a week in the wilderness without any technological toys.
Thankfully, due to the incredible challenges mankind has overcome over the past 5,000 years, we have grown to the point that we can connect to universal wisdom without the use of drugs, and many artists, inventors, and game-changers have used them anyway to help fill in the gaps. The problem is that modern man no longer recognizes the messages of artists and storytellers for what they are—clues to where we are and where we are headed. I’m sure that few people walked out of Green Lantern with a message that ties in with Quetzalcoatl the Feathered Serpent, the galactic alignment, and the new era we are entering in 2012. For whatever reason, I did.
Green Lantern is our Quetzalcoatl. In our modern mythology, he represents the same archetype of the Feathered Serpent. Green Lantern is a bright green, just like quetzal, the symbolic bird representation of Quetzalcoatl. He is able to travel though portals like Quetzalcoatl, and in fact, the ring, which is the source of his power, took him through one of these portals to receive his initial training after he stated the oath. That oath is:
In brightest day, in blackest night,
No evil shall escape my sight
Let those who worship evil’s might,
Beware my power… Green Lantern’s light
Interestingly, since the Earth will align with the sun and the Galactic Center on December 21st, I assume that it is also in relative alignment six months later on June 21st 2013, albeit, on the other side of the sun. These two dates are, of course, the Winter and Summer Solstice when we have the blackest night and brightest day on Earth. The oath also alludes to Green Lantern’s light—much like the blue-green light that emits from the center of the galaxy, the Mayan word for which also denotes a beginning or center point.
This brings us to the symbol of Green Lantern’s ring that he also bears on his chest—a glowing circle between two horizontal lines in another circle. Viewing the symbol through the lens of Mayan culture, it initially reminded me of the hoop for one of their games called pok-a-tok that is similar to our basketball and that I first learned about on a History Channel special about 2012. According to the special, the Mayan’s goal of getting the ball into the hoop represented the alignment of the sun with the galactic center. The victor of the game would be decapitated allowing him to pass directly to the spiritual realms without having to take the usual 13 steps to get there (correlating to the 13 constellations perhaps?). For the record, the loser would be killed as well, but without the express ticket to heaven.
The symbol of Green Lantern could also represent the galactic alignment itself. The glowing center would be the center of the galaxy with the lines above and below it representing the straight band of the Milky Way. All of this occurs behind the spherical sun represented by the bigger circle that surrounds the two parallel lines and the smaller, glowing circle. Put it together and the symbol represents the galactic alignment as it would appear from Earth
If these similarities weren’t enough, even the plot of Green Lantern can be seen to represent the galactic alignment. It involves an evil entity known as Parallax—a dark, shapeless creature that sucks up all in its path—much like a black hole (such as the one at the center of our galaxy) would. Interestingly, the December 2012 alignment also occurs with the Dark Rift—a dark band that runs along the Milky Way, parallel (sounding like Parallax?) within it from its galactic center northward. The Mayans called this Dark Rift the Black Road. So in a sense, on December 21, 2012, we will be aligned with our sun at the crossroads of dark and light.
At the conclusion of the film (spoiler alert), Green Lantern defeats Parallax by using its own immense gravity against itself, causing it to suck into the sun. To do this Green Lantern, representing the Earth, aligns himself with Parallax (the Dark Rift black hole) and the sun and must keep from getting sucked into either as the sun pulls Parallax into its fiery core. By proving himself, Green Lantern elevates all of humanity which is now accepted among the Guardians of the Universe as an elevated species worthy of protection. And what initially chose Earth for this honor? The alignment-shaped ring, representing the galactic alignment of 2012. It is interesting to note that while Green Lantern was created way back in 1940, the same year Batman appeared in his own comic book, it took until 2011—the year before the galactic alignment—before he would star in a motion picture. Why? I’d say because only now are we ready for the mythological message that the character represents. Its the same message that Quetzalcoatl represented for the Mayans: that we are entering a new era and are on the verge of being ready to enter it. To be deemed worthy, we must successfully overcome challenges we have never faced before. Challenges that will force us to grow so that we can handle the higher energy of this new era. Successfully doing so will earn us the respect of other entities and perhaps even other beings of this universe which may reveal themselves to us during this next Great Cycle.
As I mentioned earlier, we have many modern shaman and it isn’t just Green Lantern that is giving us this message. I also recognized it in this Summer’s J.J. Abrams/Spielberg film, Super 8. The film is about a group of children in 1979 who discover a dangerous monster that adults are unaware of (due to a government cover-up) and are initially belittled for their belief that it exists. They use their childlike innocence, inner spirit, and imagination to repel the monster (which represents adult fear, superficiality, materialism) and send it away from our world. On a metaphorical level, the movie speaks to how people today have become disillusioned by government, big business, and materialism and believe we are headed for certain doom. Only those who are tune with a higher vision will be able to steer our world away from devastation (those who were kids in the 1970s perhaps?). Both Green Lantern and Super 8 share a hero who is courageous and creative and an otherworldly villain that threatens mankind by consuming it. They also both feature governing bodies that initially are hindrances to mankind (the Guardians in Green Lantern and U.S. government in Super 8 because they don’t view them as mature enough to handle the real-world challenges.
Getting away from movies, someone else who was preaching a similar elevation message is the recently ridiculed Harold Camping who made the failed predictions of a worldwide rapture/judgment for May 21, 2011 and the end of the world for October 21, 2011. While his predictions didn’t come to pass, I think he may have been onto something. Perhaps we are currently going through a judgment of sorts. One where we are tested with day-to-day challenges—some even seemingly trivial like a handicapped person asking for help or a homeless person angrily threatening you. Your response may determine the level of challenges you will need to undergo in order to handle the world to come.
I may be wrong, but just in case, I’ll be keeping my eyes open for strange encounters and tests from now until at least December of next year and really make an effort to grow out of my comfort zone. And you might want to do the same. Because even if nothing out of the ordinary happens on December 21, 2012, the world we live in now already requires us to tap into inner strengths we didn’t know we had. And challenging yourself is the best way to get them to rise to the surface.
May your inner spark grow to light your way,
Marc
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Insightfully stated – as usual! Welcome back Marc.
Thanks Peter! I thought you might enjoy it…and that I posted it on 11/11/11.
uh…I may need to read this 2 more times just to digest it all. amazing!
Glad you liked it! I was a bit amazed by the comparisons myself. I had noticed a few things while watching the film, but it wasn’t until I began writing this that I realized how many similarities there were! And as far as the 2012 stuff, I’m still trying to wrap my head around a lot of it too.
Gary C. Daniels, founder of TheRealMayanProphecies.com and author of the upcoming book “The Real Mayan Prophecies” just posted a comment about this article on the whenfallsthecoliseum.com posting where it’s syndicated. Gary writes:
The “return of Quetzalcoatl” has been fulfilled by the return of the comet Machholz, a blue-green comet whose tail entered the Pleiades. The Pleiades were known as “the rattlesnake rattles” by the Maya. Thus this “sky serpent” or comet received its “rattles” when its tail entered the Pleiades. More importantly, a rattlesnake uses its rattles as a warning. What is this comet supposed to warn us about? The last time this comet came around was in 10,500 BC. The Earth’s last great mass extinction occurred at this time when the megafauna such as mastadons, woolly mammoths, etc went extinct. You can learn more about this here:
http://therealmayanprophecies.com/comet-machholz-and-the-return-of-kukulkan/
My reply was:
Thanks so much for the info Gary! I vaguely recall hearing about that before. So intriguing how the Mayan knew about something from 10,500 BC, or would be able to predict its return. Makes me wonder if they had alien connections, had a better understanding of time travel, or were from another world or time themselves.
With this new information, I’d say that our Green Lantern with the long green tail he emits as he flies (see http://images.wikia.com/greenlantern/images/1/1f/Green-Lantern-color.jpg ) would be our mythological representation of the comet Macholz, just as Quetzalcoatl was for the Aztecs/Mayans.
Weird how we both posted about this around the same time. Guess we’re listening to the same frequency.
Good luck with your new book. Sounds very intriguing!
WHAT WOULD YOU SAY IF I HAD BEEN GRAVITATING TOWARD BUYING ANYTHING GREEN, WRITING ABOUT A REDHEADED DRAGON CHILD BEING ADOPTED BY A POWERFUL PRIESTESS AND SEEING STAR COORDINATES IN MY DREAMS? THIS HAD HAPPENED WITHIN THIS YEAR.
WHEREAS, MANY YEARS AGO I HAVE DREAMED OF A GIGANTIC BROWN SERPENT LOOMING FROM THE NORTH. I’VE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT. IF YOU COULD HELP MEI WOULD BE GRATEFUL.
I’m not sure what a “red-headed dragon child” is, or if you are being serious, but whether you are or not is irrelevant since these are the symbols you chose to describe in your post. Whether dream or joke it came from your subconscious. I’d need to know a bit more bout what was going on in your life and what these symbols and archetypes meant to you (how does green make you feel? Green like happy nature or green like happy, or stressful, money?) I will go with a generic interpretation. Joseph Campbell referred to our dragons as our villains—the obstacles to our happiness that we are afraid to conquer. A redhead is a more rare version of something, but can grow (ugly duckling style) into something more beautiful. Children represent innocence and truth. Being adopted by a powerful priestess is the Moses myth of being a spiritual person being adopted into the material world.
So, putting it together, you are a rare spiritual person trapped in a material world where you aren’t quite comfortable. You have a special talent you aren’t fully utilizing because you are afraid of something that is prevent you from achieving it. You can continue living the life you are, and be quite comfortable, but never truly fulfilled.
The star coordinates are likely your soul traveling through the heavens as you sleep. Since you know you cannot fly in space, use these dreams as a gateway to lucid dreaming and you can ask questions in your dreams and get more specific answers.
The gigantic brown serpent can be so many things—the illusion of time, your beast to conquer, or even your fear of men.
Anyway, see if that makes any sense to you.
I am actually serious and I’ve been looking for answers for such a long time. I know my dreams have never been normal. When I was a child I dreamed my aunt/guardian being dragged away by people in hooded robes inside our house. She was struggling and I was sitting on the couch paralyzed. I couldn’t do anything as they dragged her away. I dreamed of that three times and then a terrible accident happened to her when she took a vacation without me. I felt guilty because I wanted to go with her but she said that the trip was so far away (a 10-hour trip one way) that not one in the family went with her. I was also a sickly child so she was worried about me. But still, I felt that had I been there with her, her death would not have been cloaked in mystery. Since then I had been wary about dreaming the same dream, especially if it was kind of catastrophic, three times. I had dreamed that snake dream for the second time now. I believe it was not just symbolic or anything. It was like an omen. I had dreamed also that I was facing a huge dark wall of water (twice dreamt). I am not being melodramatic here. I really dreamt them and I am kind of scared of what might happen if they do come true.
Before I even read up to the “wall of water” I was going to suggest that the gigantic brown serpent was a tidal wave/tsunami. After seeing that you mentioned it, it seems like a given. Have you looked into hypnosis? You might also want to watch the movie “Wanted” which shows how a gift can manifest as an illness or issue when not properly channeled. You describe yourself as “sickly” as a child. You are probably a gifted shaman who needs an outlet for your abilities, which should be honed by a professional. Ask the universe and your spiritual guides for answers and they should come to you in dreams. You’d be wise to learn to live consciously. Dreaming Bear (http://dreamingbear.net/) is an expert on dreams and you might want to contact him. How did you stumble upon this blog?
A friend sends me emails about various topics. This email about the Green Lantern had been in my archive for months now and I suddenly found myself opening it. Question: How do I know about my spiritual guides? What form do they manifest in?
I first learned about spiritual guides in the book, “Many Lives, Many Masters” by Brian L. Weiss, M.D., but there are probably many books out today where it is more of a focus. Your spiritual guides, as I understand them, are archetypal energies that can take the form of everything from the archangels Michael and Gabriel to animal energies, mother nature, departed loved ones, ancient gods, fairies, aliens, ancient peoples, your future or higher self, or even modern day mythological heroes like Superman or Luke Skywalker. (In most myths, the spiritual guides are portrayed as fairy godmothers or wizards who help the hero on their quest.) The point is that all these archetypes represent energies that exist around us, and will manifest in forms where you tend to get messages—in your case this will most likely be dreams. I usually get them through the media—movies, TV shows, movies, billboards—or in various clues—an overheard conversation, a fortune cookie prediction, horoscope, graffiti, etc.
You really don’t have to know anything about them to get their wisdom. Before going to sleep at night, ask a question to the universe. Keep doing it until you get an answer. Just be aware that the answer can come in many forms. For expert advice on spiritual guides, I suggest you contact Stephen Popiotek or DreamingBear Baraka Kanaan , both on Facebook.
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Holy. Shit. I can’t even explain how much I relate, it’s almosf as if I wrote this. It’s been so hard to find others expediting the honeycomb! I’d love to connect, feel free to email me!
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